Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Hello...
Wow... So long never blog already and why am i here? haha. Today is the 9th of Dec 2009. Came back from cambodia not too long ago and the feeling that i am having now is bad... I wonder why am i feeling this way. Each time i come back from cambodia, the feeling is like that. Didn't want to come back. Didn't want to leave my friends. Didn't want to say Good Bye.
This trip has been rather different from my previous one. Maybe its just a different kind of leading. Different calling. Different people in the team. Different Leaders.
I admit that through this trip, it wasn't easy for me at all. Many things i disagree about. Many mountains to climb. Many giants to Fight. But i am glad that i actually went for this trip. Not only to meet up with friends that i have not seen for awhile but also to know this new relationship with the people i went with. To know them better although i see them every week in church. To see what kind of people they are and to accept them for who they are.
Coming back to singapore was tough. Leaving friends behind and not knowing when you are going to see them again.
Indeed, i miss them alot. The bond that we had. The closness we had. The fun we went through.
Each time i start thinking of them, tears start coming out. Feelings come n take control.
Its really tough. You never know will you ever see them again or not.
This is the second time i am there. Was looking out for those that i seen before but some isn't there anymore. Its sad to hear some of their stories. One is in hospital cos of HIV. many was taken back to their parents. I mean going back to the parents or family is a happy thing but i was wondering what are they doing now?
I start thinking weather is it better to be in the home or is it better to go back to the family.
Right now, i am praying that God will bring me back to Cambodia again.
4:07 PM
