Thursday, March 30, 2006
The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of CoffeeWhen things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in frontof him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and emptymayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked thestudents if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas betweenthe golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. Theyagreed it was.The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Ofcourse, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jarwas full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table andpoured the entire contents into the ja! r effect ively filling the emptyspace between the sand. The students laughed."Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you torecognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the importantthings--your family, your children, your health, your friends and yourfavorite passions--and if everything else was lost and only they remained,your life would still be full.The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house andyour car.The sand is everything else--the small stuff. "If you put the sand into thejar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golfballs. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on thesmall stuff you will never have room for the things that are important toyou."Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play withyour children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out todinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house andfix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first--the things that reallymatter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffeerepresented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."
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im so tired man. with all the late nite n stuff. this whole week hav nt been in camp. so shiok. sundea when to ian's place to stay over than later went to watch movie with ben n bibi. after that, went to eddie's place to stay over with lester n we play wc3 until late late ah. we take turns to slp so that means that every time, there will be ppl playing. than the next dae, still play n play but lester went back n i stayed over at eddie's place again.
than the next dae, i stayed over at ian's place n todae, i finally wanna go home n slp. hehe. 4daes of staying over..... super tired man. hehe... take care.
8:42 PM
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Later gt rugby match at 3. n its raining. donno weather will the match be cancel. hope nt. had captains ball on sun with hakka. it was fun but i only gt to play for like half a match cos there were too many ppl. ohh well. than had life firing yesterdae. suppose to end in the afternoon but when i gt back to camp, it was oready like 7pm. but cant conplain because thats how army is. nv on time. ehehe.
Jus cant wait to get out of army but oso hoping that it will nt end so fast cos i hav nt decided on wat to do next. as time comes closer n closer, i became more stress. nt stress on studys or watever but stress on wat to do next. been thinking n thinking n i hav nt found the "RIVER" in my life. Wat does God wans me to do?
God, would u show me ur plans for me? Would u let me see a clearer picture of my life? Let me find my river that leads me to where u wan me to be.
Its time to let some things go. Cant always hang onto them. as time flys, it wont be the same anymore. things change n i should be happy for that. i'll be super selfish if i were to nt let it go at all.
12:28 PM
Friday, March 17, 2006
Jus wanting to type some of my feelings to some of my frens.
It felt like we hav changed. We use to to hang out together n hav so much fun but nw, it seems like we r miles apart. i thought that we could be gd or even best fren but ever since u hav gone to another place, u did nt wanna tok to me. u put me one side n so i was left alone. i felt so empty inside of me. i felt like no one was there anymore. nw like u hav ur other frens, u dont wanna tok to me no more. i've been trying to call u or tok to u but i jus couldn't get through to u. or even if i did, u r nt really toking to me cos u gt distracted by other things. i wan to be close to u again. sometimes i jus wonder weather its wrong to be close to someone? cos when ever i became close to someone, that person tent to hav a distance from me... haiz... i jus donno wats all this friendship abt. so complicated.
11:59 PM
Monday, March 13, 2006
There is one thing i realised abt ppl nw a daes is that lots of ppl r changing. changing to be another person. but how come they can jus change over nite? how come ppl that i use to like to tok to or hang out with become those i cant even turn to? tried toking to so many of them but the feelings i had with them before was so much diff nw. i cant strike a conversation with them no more. i cant joke or tok to them serious anymore. nw, it jus felt like they were strangers. ppl that i do not noe at all. ppl that maybe i jus tok to once.
Maybe its because things in this world change very often. even frens change. its like, being close to u for ages but by the next dae, its like we've known each other for only afew hrs.
I jus donno wat im going through. im like so confuse with life. confuse in the things that r happening. i really donno wats going on n wats wrong. i thought that im the kind of person that would noe many things cos i observe alot but i was wrong. i thought that im the person that would noe my limits n would noe weather im doing the right thing or nt. but i was wrong. i donno wats wrong but it felt like i did nt do the right thing. n i jus wonder, wat did i nt do right? or wat did i do wrong.
sometimes i noe that many ppl get the wrong idea. n they started to look at me differently. but wat can i do?
hiya... i donno wat to sae lah but jus live life in a way that no matter wat ppl thinks, i dont care anymore.
4:11 AM
Thursday, March 02, 2006
donno wats next for me in life. many qus starts to pop in my mind. ppl kept asking me. n im confuse. im lost. donno where to go. donno wat to take. donno where to walk to n donno which is the path to go. im regreting some stuff in life but i noe regretting is nt the solution. But where? Where do i go next? dae aft dae, nite aft nite, this r the qus that kept me thinking.
Soon, i'll be out of army. and where do i go next?
austalia to study? which school? wat couse?
singapore to study? Which school? wat couse?
private couses? which school? wat couse?
go for private o's?
go back to ite? which school? wat couse?
or maybe jus go n work? Where n Wat?
So many choices to chose n yet im confuse.
There is one mistake that i make in life when i was young is that i did nt put my heart in studying. nt even abit. i treated going to sch like a playground. like a place where frens meet. a place where u can play sports. a place where we students bully the teachers. i noe that many of us did the same too but after getting out of sch, i felt that i shouldn't be doing that in the past. nw, i gt to find another way out.
but well, wats done has been done. no point looking back at all the wrongs i did but instead learn from it n since i gt many other options, make it wisely.
I wanna thank all my frens who hav been really supportive in watever i did. for listening to me n for helping out. u all rox man.
wanna thank my parents oso. though i hav make life difficult for both of u, u all r still here guilding me along. n u all hav nt given up hope in me. ur the best parents anyone could hav.
12:33 PM
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
todae, went for lunch with bibi n later went her hse. play games n i cant belive that i played pokemon again after so many yrs. hehe. n it was fun. like going back to my childhood life. n this shows that its nt too young to do anything. while playing games at bibi hse, her fren called n ask weather she wanted to go to CCAB to play basketball n so we went. met may n the rest of their frens we headed down to CCAB. first time there n it looks like a sports sch where ppl come to hav sports n training. played basketball for awhile.
Theres a prob rite nw. the probs with ACS boys. its been so long n yet todae, my thinking of them is still the same. Since secondary school, i hated acs boys cos of one incident.
when i was in sec 2, we went to bukit timah to play street soccer. because it wasn't our area, we tried nt to make any trouble there. but things dont seem to work out between both ppl. we were there first playing soccer n soon later the acs guys came n the jus jump into the court n take our ball n kicking it ard. alot of us wanted to jus beat them up but than my leader told us nt to cos its nt our area. so we ask for our ball back but instead, they kick it out of the court into a field far away. soon later, my fren couldn't take it anymore n all of us started to fight.
haiz.... i mean like y acs boys so like that wan. come to think of it, althought i do nt like them, i realised that many of my frens r from acs. n even some of them r my gd frens. maybe they hav nt found their identity yet. todae i see them like so childish.
when i heard that this few boys todae disturbing my frens, i was really angry n i remb abt last time the fight. i really wanna go up to them n give them a punch on their face but i kept holding back. i cant do it cos wat will my frens think of me again if i really did that.
i guess nw, acs boys from church than i can mix with if nt, it will be trouble.
"Dont trouble Trouble n Trouble wont trouble You. If You trouble Trouble, Trouble will Trouble You."
i hope that in future, i will be able to accept acs boys who is ppl that i can hang out with n nt jus ppl that reminds me of my past.
CiAo.
7:12 PM
