Thursday, August 25, 2005
Footprints
This is my favourite....
Imagine you and the Lord Jesus are walking down the road together. For much of the way, the Lord's footprints go along steadily, consistently, rarely varying the pace. But your footprints are a disorganized stream of zigzags, starts, stops, turnarounds, circles, departures, and returns.
For much of the way, it seems to go like this, but gradually your footprints come more in line with the Lord's, soon paralleling His consistently. You and Jesus are walking as true frens!
This seems perfect, but then an interesting thing happens: Your footprints that once etched the sand next to Jesus' are now walking precisely in His steps. Inside His larger footprints are your smaller ones, You and Jesus are becoming one.
This goes on for many miles, but gradually you notice another change. The footprints inside the larger footprints seem to grow larger.
Eventually they disappear altogether. There is only one set of footprints they have become one.
This goes on for a long time, but suddenly the second set of footprints is back. This time it seems even worse! Zigzags all over the place. Stops. Starts. Gashes in the sand. A variable mess of prints.
You are amazed and shocked. Your dream ends. Now you pray:
"Lord, I understand the first scene, with zigzags n fits. I was a new christian; I was just learning. But you walked on through the storm helped me learn to walk with You."
"That is correct."
"And when the smaller footprints were inside of Yours, I was actually learning to walk in Your steps, following You very closely."
"Very good.. You have understood everything so far"
"When the smaller footprints grew and filled in Yours, I suppose that I was becoming like You in every way."
"Precisely."
"So, Lord, was there a regression or something? The footprints separated, and this time it was worse than at first."
There is a pause as the Lord answers, with a smile in His voice.
"You didn't know? It was then that we danced!"
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This week wasn't that bad. i get to sit on the helicopter. well, this helicopter that i sat is called the Super Puma. It was quite fun sitting in the helicopter man. how rare can a person sit on it. hehe. well, its like so late le. i think me gonna go slp le. bye.
5:10 PM
Monday, August 15, 2005
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well, todae is the last dae of the carnival at marina south. no more weekends burn but some how, im gonna miss it man. somehow, i dont wan it to end. maybe because of the free time i get when im there like going to the arcade, eating n drinking. hanging ard marina south n walking ard to see stuff. thats fun lah. but now since its over, its back to camp life again. sian. back to training, back to the boring life. the worse thing that is coming is that im gonna hav out field this coming tuesdae. hate it alot.
sometimes i wonder how come my life is so full of things that i donno how to explain. i mean like so many things happen in my life. from how i was before until the dae i noe who God is until wat i am todae. hav been thinking alot lately abt my past. from who i was before n now im like this. i jus dont noe how come im thinking like this. haiz...
i jus wanna take this chance to thank my frens who hav helped me through so many things. church ppl who hav bless me with so many things n with all those encouragement. i really appreciate it.
well, i dont feel like saeing anymore. i'll end here. bye.
4:35 PM
Saturday, August 06, 2005
wat life can be.
well, hav not updated this blog for awhile. partly because i do not hav time to update it due to the ndp n the carnival in marina south. n it haven even finish yet. im quite sick n tired of going to maina south le. perform for everyone to see but no one was there. its like weekends r burn. time r wasted. wats the point man. having so much probs lately.
Wat to do??? y hav all this happen? i hav told very little ppl abt this but this is getting too far. well, i hav this really good fren who i treated him like a brother to me. but one dae, he did something bad n was thrown into jail. dont really remember how long was that. went to visit him one dae n he told me to do something for him. he ask me to take care of his younger sister n so i promise him that. so now, his sister i like a sister to me. after having to go into army, i wont hav enough time for that girl so i ask me other gd fren to take care of her. not long ago, i recived a fone call n it was from that girl. n wat i heard from her really piss me off. she told me that she was rape. n rape by who? she was rape by that so call "gd fren" of mine. now the prob is this. how am i gonna tell my brother wat happen to his sis? how am i gonna explain it to him? its partly my fault that this happen cos im the one who ask the "gd fren" to take care of her. i donno man.
still got so many probs in me that i dont wanna sae. argh... wats happening to me. how i wish i could jus go somewhere far away on my own n nv come back again. i donno.
3:37 PM
