Me And My Life

Thursday, March 19, 2009

sad to say!!! DISAPPOINTED

Im disappointed in the leadership of many people.

They have lost my respect.

They take friends for granted.

You call yourselves Christians?

You call yourselves a Church?

You call yourselves an image of who God is?

Then what would non-believers think of God when they see us?

Are we different from those who do not know God?]

What is the difference?

If non-belivers see who God is through the things we do, then they must have know that this is a lousy God.

Right now, im sure that many non-belivers behave better then we christians behave.

They dont take friends for granted.

And I respect them for that.

Unbelivable

4:44 PM

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Back again

Well, i have not been around here for awhile. Now at home not doing anything and decided to maybe update abit.

Its been quite a journey for me this past few years. Going into shatec and after 2 yrs graduated. But after that, what do i do? Its been a struggle deciding my future on my own. Not letting God take control. ok here is how it actually happen....

After gradutaing from Shatec, i was worried of what im going to do after that, Cos this will be what i'll be doing in a long term. hopefully till i retire. So was having my long break after graduating but soon, i was introduce to this vietnamese resturant to work in. so i agreed to go for the interview. Waiting for the days of my interview, alot of things went through my mind. Things like, i have not had enough break yet. Do i want to work in a vietnamese resturant? and stuff like that. Afew days had past and the date of the interview came, i went for the interview and everything went smoothly. I was asked to go back again to do some paper works before i start work. And they will call me to tell me when i have to go back. During the time before going back, questions start appearing in my head again but this time i told myself that i dont mind doing it at all and my head was at ease.
Nearing to the date of going back, i recived a call from my dad. He asked me if i would like to take over his business which he had started but wanted to stop. After hearing from him, i was so excited over it but also dont know if i should take it. Cos running a business isn't easy at all and i just graduted and not knowing much about business at all. So i told him that to let me think about it first. and he did.

So i was running out time for my big decision. During that period i was really struglling. I was still waiting for the call to tell me when i should go back but i know it was near. One day, i met up with my mentor to talk about this over lunch n coffee. She told me so many things which kept me thinking. And letting me realise that i have forgotten that i have a God who is just waiting for me to ask.
During that talk with my mentor, i recived a phone call and to my disbelief, its from the vietnamese resturant asking me to go back in afews days time. After getting that call, i became to panic and became desperate for an answer. For a decision that i need to make soon. I went back home, and i went on my knees crying out to God that i needed His help. That i cant do it on my own anymore cos i really just cant. I am weak without Him. Decided to leave it all to Him and i felt much better after that.

Just one day before going back to the resturant, i was praying and God told me not to take up the resturant. but after hearing it, i was happy that now i know what to do but also afraid cos how am i going to tell them that i wont be going anymore in just a short time. And it was about 12 plus in the night and the only time i can call them is on the day itself. But knowing that i have to do it, i leave it to God for strength. The next day, woke up early in the morning and took my phone out.sitting on the sofa in the living room, staring at the phone on the table. I took the phone and dial the no but didn't dare press the call button. So in desprate measures, i went to God again ask him to give me the peace that i need the strength to do his will and He did. after the prayer, i went up on my feet, took the phone and called the person that interviewed me. explanned to him everything that has happen and about the offer my dad had giving me n stuff. and was expecting him to give me a big scolding but he didn't. he totally understand and all he did was say "OK". I put down the phone and gave myself a big sigh of relieve and talk to myself saying, "its so easy".

Through this incident, it taught me that God can make things easy if you have faith and do what he says. And let him be in control of your life. So never ever make such decisions on your own. God is there waiting for us to asked. =)

10:46 AM

the guy

Name: Lionel

if you think you are beaten; you are if you think you dare not, you dont if you'd like to win, but you think you cant it's almost a cinch you wont if you think you'll lose; you lost for out in the world we find sucess begins with a person's faith it's all in the state of mind life's battles dont always go to the stronger or faster hand they go to the one who trusts in God and always thinks "i can!"

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