Me And My Life

Sunday, June 26, 2005

JALAN KAYU DAES R BACK

well, this week suppose to be a really slack week since my out field jus ended last week but from a slack week to a really tiring week. we had lots of physical training n lots of physical test like SOC n IPPT. sad to sae that my company has one of the lowest passes for SOC n IPPT.
This whole week, my OC face was like black. blacker than charcoal i can sae. i donno wat is his prob but it do not look gd at all. n than on tues or wed, there was this OC lecture n it is really a lecture. He sae that he jus came from a meeting n all they tok abt was SOC n IPPT n my company was bomb with all kind of non sense.
Come on lah... who dont wanna pass SOC n IPPT. Everybody that i noe wanna pass it so that they wont hav to take it again but they keep on saeing that we did not put in effort. thats rubbish. they jus dont understand us.
Than my OC became really angry n he sae that he is gonna take away our wellfare. no more canteen break n no more nights out from now on. but come to think of it, wat wellfare is he toking abt? we dont get nights out often. we dont get our canteen break at all n he tok abt wellfare. i agree that he let us slack in the bunk alot of times but that isn't call wellfare at all.
I cant belive that he acually stop all this so call "wellfare" when last week we did so much during out field n CO was so please abt it. Than y at the first dae did we do our best. than he sae that starting from next week, phsical training will be for everydae instead of mon, wed n fri. he is jus trying to kill us lah.
but on thurs, there was another lecture n he sae sori to us n sae that he was jus to hash to stop our "wellfare". so ohh well. but traininf will still be everydae.

well, afew new private from BMTC came over to our company. they jus pass out from recruit n now has join us. my platoon got 3 of them n they seems fun. hehe. mus remember not to bully them. hehe.
Thurs, was my 1 year in the army le. hehehehe... than at night, we had this so call bbq dinner. we ate n ate until really we were like bloated. beer was serve to us n we drink n drink. drink until full. than later we did some work n we bk out ard 10pm.

The next dae, we went to ecp for some 10km run. i run until leg pain ah. hehe... n it rain but no choice hav to run in the rain. k lah... acually, i walk like most of it n run jus abit. hehe. after that we could go off n some of us went to hav brunch. after brunch, all decided to go home but i dont feel like going home so i called jiahao if he is free. he jus woke up. so i went to parklane to play game n later jiahao called n ask me to go his house. i took a cab to this house n we tok n hav lunch. later, we went to play afew rounds of pool n durts. than after that, he went to bath n we both went out. he wanted to buy a lether shoes so we went to afew places but we met up with reg first n she brough us ard. soon later, benwu meet us n we went shopping again. n later daniel meet us n later claire n the rest.
well, we were suppose to give jasmine a surprise dinner but plan fail. before she reach tony romas, she oready realised it. hehe wasted leh... wanna see the look on her face when she got surprise but in the end cannot. we had quite alot n i drink alot of water until got to go to the loo for many many times.
after dinner we went back home n soon, i went to meet up with some of my frens. we went to jalan kayu for pratas. its been like ages since i went there with my grp of frens. we tok n tok all nite. eat n eat all nite. i think the prata ppl earn quite alot yesterdae. hehe. jus got home. im like so tired. n now im thinking where to go later. hehe... well. gtg now... bye.

2:04 PM

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Its finally over...

well well, finally one of my last out field is over. Out field is like one of the most hated thing i got to do.

well, i had an out field this week started on mondae. n it ended on thursdae late afternoon. so by the time i reach back camp, its oready quite late at nite. stay up during the nite to clean my weapons n its like in a bad condition. cos it rain during the out field n my gun got wet n my rifle got rust. bad enough that it is all in matel, it got wet n now almost the whole rifle got rust. ohh well... i stayed up through the nite jus to clean my rifles. before i could done cleaning it, it was super later n we needed the slp so my officer ask us to send our rifle back. after everything, we went back to our bunk n started cooking noodles to eat cos through the out field, i hav not really had a gd meal. hehe. after eating, we went back to slp. usual timing to wake up the next dae was 5.30 but thank god that my officer allow us to wake up by 8. but when i woke up, its like 10. hehe... time for lunch soon. after lunch, we went to draw our rifle again n started cleaning again until ard 3. than we did some area cleaning. soon, its time to bk out le. thats the most happiest part of army... bk out. hehe.
than bk out, rush back home n quickly bath. after bathing, went out to meet jiahao, daneil, ben wu, joette, sabrina, xiang n tany for dinner at jian tao jian. i had really a great meal there. i ate 2 places. hehe. pig. than after that, we went to tany hse n soon more ppl came like bas, james, chao, stace, ruth, sharon. than we played this new game called machkin. its fun when u noe how to play. hehe. we played through out the nite n when its ard 1, sharon n i decided to go home while the rest continue to stay. haha.

my week was a tiring week but my weekends was great n its gonna be great. hehe. well, going now. bye.

1:19 AM

Saturday, June 18, 2005

SiS 21st BiRtHdAy

it was so much fun. hehe. well, todae we celebrated my sis 21st bdae. it was my parents idea to do all this. well, it is held at a hotel called merchent court hotel. quite a big n nice hotel. n it is held at the poolside. so there were like bbq n stuff n many ppl were there. some of them i noe cos of last time there is a chalet n we were together. some old sister frens which i nv seen or tok to them for so long le. than we tok n chat n eat. than ard 8+, jiahao,sharon,tany,ruth came. soon after that, jas sia came too. hehe... than we ate n tok loh. after everything, they hav this programme n its more of like sabo my sis. ask her to sing on stage n stuff. make her bf n her sing. yea... than we went to cut cake n after that it was quite late le. like 11. so we decided to go back home. i went home with the rest cos i was too tired n i noe that everything would like end at ard 1am. cant tahan. n now im like home writing this blog. well, thats old lah. byebye.

11:31 PM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

gd bye my fren

Gd bye my fren. u hav been a great brother to me n a great fren. a fren that did not leave me when im alone. a fren who pick me up when i fall. a fren who encourages me so much. that fren that brought me back on my feet when im on my knees. thank u so much. i luv u my brother. though nw i couldn't sae thank u to u face to face, i hope that u can hear my appriciation to u.

God in heaven high above. i ask that u guide kang fei. as he is now in a new place called heaven, im glad that he is with u. Lord, i cry to u with all my heart that as he is in heaven u, that u will continue to protect him n to teach him even more.
Lord as now he hav left us, i wanna pray for his family. i noe its gonna be hard to except wat has happen but lord i pray that his mom, dad n bro will continue to live for u. Lord i pray for ur streagth to be with them. Lord i pray that nothin could ever stop them from worshipping u n giving u praises. i pray for all his frens n love ones that they too will be strong. i give thanx to u for wat has happen. may u continue to teach us n guide us. thank u Lord. i pray all this in ur holy n precious name Jesus, amen.

4:04 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

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Mondae was super fun man. sundae i stayed over in church for the jyc leaders camp n we had so much fun. i jus love them so much. than come on mondae, when the rest of the jycers came, i had even more fun. getting to noe them n playing games with them was so fun. at first, i do not hav any grp but since ying nuo grp only hav one guy who turn up for the camp, nicole ask me if i wanna join their grp so i sae yes. the first thing we did was bonding & funn we played quite alot of games. hehe... than after that, we change our clothes n its time for some wet games. hehe. we played n played until i laugh like crazy. than comes the war. the war of water bombs. i got smack so many times by the water bombs n it hurts abit. hehe. but all goes well, its fun. hehe. after games, we went to wash up n had dinner. after dinner was session but too bad i got to bk in le.

tues, weds n thurs i jus slack in camp loh. nv do anything lah. hehe. but comes on fri, its bad. not as in really bad lah but quite tiring. cos in the morning, i had SOC test. n guess wat. i fail by jus 2 seconds. hehe. than cos many ppl fail, my OC ask us to go n do again. i mean wat the hack. we jus came back from a test n now he wans us to do it again. u noe how tiring is it. haiz. nvm. than when im doing the second one, i suddenly had a blister on my left hand. than my OC sae that those who fail, will hav a combat run this on that afternoon at ard 3.30. he is like killing us lah. than when comes to 3, those who pass hav bk out le. than ard 3.30, they ask us to change into out civilian clothes n we were so happy cos we thought they cancel the run. but after we came down with out civi clothes, they sae that there will still be a run so we went up to change back to our uniform n went down for the run. but when we went down, they ask us to go back n change back to our civiliao clothes again. arge... they r playing us lah. its like changing parade. than we went up to change. gd thing, that they nv change le. than after that, they tell us to bk in back at 9.30 cos tml will hav another training. hiyo. we train like siao oready leh. than when i bk out, i rush down to suntec to meet the rest of the guys for dinner. than went to church for this tok lah. but all i could go for is jus the worship than i got to go back to camp le.

than sat, i did nothin lah. should be going for the extra training wan but cos of my blister, i got excuse. hehe. so thats like wat i did loh.
next week got out field le. donno how to tahan. but i noe i can lah. than i wont be able to go for the y-cite camp oso. ohh well. thats all.

11:22 AM

Sunday, June 05, 2005

IM BLOGGING AGAIN...

May: thx for creating this blog for me. =)

im starting to blog again but donno if i'll update it often. anyway, i only can update it on weekends. tml is the jyc leaders camp n im looking forward to it. i thank God that i could take one dae leave for the camp. although i couldn't stay for the whole thing, im still glad that i could even make it for a dae. hehe.

well, my life now isn't much lah. i jus donno how to sae but life now in army, i dont really like it. its jus so many things is happening. frens in camp n the things they do, i jus donno wat to do lah. jus so confuse n stuff. its like i wan to be part of wat they r doing but the things that they r doing, i jus cannot do it. the things they sae tok abt, i cant join them. i felt so left out.
sometimes, i felt like giving up. but something is stopping me from doing it. haiz... i donno wat to do lah.

I noe that You are here but i jus dont feel You.
You might be here but You seems so far.
Where is the one im looking for?
Im clueless but im still finding.
I feel like giving up but i jus cant.
Keep me strong n i'll continue to find.
I need the strength for it to be done.
Help me. Teach me. Save me.

Back to LIFE.......

7:48 AM

Saturday, June 04, 2005

HOW COME?

Im jus so lazy man. is church really my home? is church really wat i can call home? i use to like going to church even when its not for service or power hour. i use to go becos i like that place. i love hanging out with the ppl there. but now, its like so diff. when ever i go to church, all i wan to do is jus to rest or jus to hang out there. all i wan to do is jus to chat with ppl there. but i donno y when ever i go to church, its like time to work. ppl started asking me to do this n do that which i do not wan to do cos i jus wanna rest. its like....
"lionel, can u bring the table down to 3 floor?"
"lionel, can u go buy lunch or dinner?"
"lionel, can u help me do this?"
"lionel lionel lionel......"
when ever they ask me, i normally dont sae anything but in my heart, im feeling this. ppl can sae that im such a slack. im jus so lazy. im this im that but i dont even care at all. ppl can jus sae wat ever comments they wan but i jus dont care. thats jus me lah. n nothin can change that. im jus who i am n not a single soul can change that attitute of mine. i donno y im piss over such a small thing. sometimes, i jus wonder y i got such a stinky attitute. a attitute that everybody hates. the qus always goes "WHY? WHY? WHY?"

Give up or not, i wonder.

May, Abi: u see, im like 2 diff person from when u see me n in my blog rite? i donno wat to sae lah. haiz.

9:26 PM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

hello

helloooooooooooo..
can you believe your eyess/?!??!?
it's LIONEL"S BLOGGGG!!@$@()!$$@
hahahahaa/okay.just to blog so that i can do a template for him.
aahahha.this is so fun.rem to visit your fren here okayy
our army fren's got lotsa stuff to say and share.;)
signing off.---

9:35 PM