Saturday, January 21, 2006
well, jus wanna apologise to all the frens that hav been there for me n guilding me all this while. joanne, may, abi, sia, queen, joette, ruth, sharon, reg, tany, jiahao, eddie, ian, shawn, ben, ah kieong, ah lau, skye, meatball, ah yue, andy, farhan, sam, audrey, nitestalker n so many other ppl. wow. realising that so many ppl in my life. so many frens to count on n depend on. im so fortunate to hav u all as my close ones. u all r like my family. even closer to me than my mom n dad n even sis.
i was thinking so much for afew daes n i realise one thing. ppl i mix with, i tent to be really close to them n i keep hanging on to them. feeling so comfortable in their pressense. but that brings me to somewhere where they r part of my life which i dont wanna let go at all.
i hav been really selfish. cant belive it. becos i felt this way, i brought everyone into this. becos of nt letting them go, i became a beast. i jus wan them to be in my life always. i jus wan them to go out with me n nt others. how selfish can i get. wake up that idea nukes.
i gess nw, its back to normal. from todae on, i gt to wake up n noe wat im doing. being selfish is nt the way. n i noe its hard but im gonna try one thing is that all of them r still my really gd frens, sisters, brothers, grand daughters, etc. but i gt to noe wat im doing. try nt to be too close to them or else it will be so hard. dont wan anything to happen the same way as wat had happen between grace n me. thank u all for everything. Yi luv u guysY.
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