Saturday, January 28, 2006
wat dae i had yesterdae. in camp n i was having so much to do. parade n parade n parade. even though this parade i did nt do anything, one whole dae of this is a killer. Being an IC is really tough. i donno wat to do. getting msg n calls from my sgt n officers to ask ppl to go down can oready kill me. ppl dont listen to me n even tok back. ppl i ask to do stuff scolded me back. its jus so hard being an IC. yesterdae, i was lying on my bed putting my face down onto the pillow n was like screaming. i cant take all this pressure n stress. having probs at home n nw in camp. how am i gonna survive all this? sigh
than todae during the real parade, i recived a msg from shawn n he told me than ken has jus pass away. when i recived that msg, i was shock at it for abt 5mins n suddenly tears came out of my eyes. my close fren who i noe ever since pri4 hav left all of us. remembering the times we do together. lion dance, snecking out of class to buy food from the canteen. toking so loudly in class, bullying the teachers, play pool, billiard n lan. n so much more we did together. but nw, all ends. after the parade, i was so sad, wanting to jus cry but there were so many ppl ard. so i jus called my officer n ask for permission to book out early to see my fren n he did. i rush out of camp n went straight to the hospital. when i reach there, all my frens were there oready. his mum was crying at one corner. later on, all of us went in to see him. when i step into his ward, i saw him lying there. so pale. so white. all of us crowd ard him n many of us tried nt to cry infront of so many ppl. n afew mins later, his mum came in. once his mum called out his name, she started crying really badly. n his dad gt to bring her out of the ward to the other room. when we heard her cry, most of us started to tear. how sad is this.
i realised that many of my close ones having been leaving me. last yr, so many deaths. this yr beginning oready hav one. it makes me think even more y this is happening. than it makes me realise that life is unpredictable. u nv noe when one can jus go. u might see him/her yesterdae n nv see him/her again. life isn't as long as many ppl thinks. treassure ur love ones.
im glad that the last time i saw him was during his bdae. ever since after secondary, we went seperate paths n did nt contact each other for awhile. jus last yr, he invited afew of us over to his place for his bdae. it was a last min thing n i did nt wanna go cos i was in queensway n he stayed at serangoon. somehow, i did nt reject him n went. had so much fun there. having steamboat. we tok n tok. so many of us who hav nt catch up with one another for a long time. after that, we cut cake n stuff than we head to hougang to play pool n billiard. after that, i became hungry n i wanted to go for supper but he told me that his hse had crabs. so only 3 of us went to his hse after billiard while the rest went home. we eat n eat n eat until we r bloated. than head to his room n we tok. tok abt old times. tok abt us when we were back in sch together.
i'll tressure the toks we had during that dae. i'll tressure the time we had together.
LOVE YOU KEN YEOW...
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