Me And My Life

Monday, January 16, 2006

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wats wrong? wat hav happen?
This r the qus that pop in my head. i felt like dirt. i felt like crap. did i do anything wrong?

ohh man... i felt as if my close frens r no longer there. i felt as if my close frens doesn't need me anymore. i felt so alone. so lonely. like ppl ard me isn't there anymore. like... ppl who i love to hang out with or had late nite toks on the fone isn't there anymore. did they change? or am i the one who is changing? y am i feeling like this? this feeling i cant explain. the feeling of rejection. so much to think but so little to do.
frens who im close with when im in sch. frens who r in church who encourage me n tok to me. frens that i always hang out with. i felt that they r all gone. felt like they r no longer the same person i knew before. i felt like being push away. is it them??? or izzit me?

i guess nw, many of them hav other ppl to lean on. to tell their probs to. they dont need me no more. i guess nw, they hav ppl who r close to. they hav ppl that they love. they hav new frens n they forgot that i im here. felt really rejected. donno who to trust. donno who to count on. i think its time nt to depend on them anymore. i guess nw, its all by myself n with God.

im so curious to noe who will be my partner in future. so that i could truly trust her n share my every prob. but to wait for that dae, its so hard. so long. but till that dae, i donno who to depend on.

ohh well, at least i gt God to depend on, to share my probs with.

7:05 PM

the guy

Name: Lionel

if you think you are beaten; you are if you think you dare not, you dont if you'd like to win, but you think you cant it's almost a cinch you wont if you think you'll lose; you lost for out in the world we find sucess begins with a person's faith it's all in the state of mind life's battles dont always go to the stronger or faster hand they go to the one who trusts in God and always thinks "i can!"

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